Thursday, June 26, 2003
Hello party people. Feeling a little bit better today. Also I want a ciggie.
Had a lovely walk to work this morning, listening to some oldies cds my dad made me. One song on there called "Nashville Cats" - not exactly sure what it means but there's a line where he says "Nobody ever buys these records up here he said but *I* will.... " just something about the way he said it; very sexy.
Got me thinking about the subtle little things that one can find sexy. Like a face with the tiniest corner of a smile. Or a stomach with a treasure trail leading down..... hands... I think bits and peices can be at times more sexy than the whole package, non?
Had a lovely walk to work this morning, listening to some oldies cds my dad made me. One song on there called "Nashville Cats" - not exactly sure what it means but there's a line where he says "Nobody ever buys these records up here he said but *I* will.... " just something about the way he said it; very sexy.
Got me thinking about the subtle little things that one can find sexy. Like a face with the tiniest corner of a smile. Or a stomach with a treasure trail leading down..... hands... I think bits and peices can be at times more sexy than the whole package, non?
Monday, June 23, 2003
I keep thinking of this bit in "Coal Miner's Daughter" when Loretta Lynn is waiting in her bus to go on stage, and then she goes on stage and starts singing "You Ain't Woman Enough (To Take My Man)", but she stops in the middle because she's just so stressed out and Doo has to come and take her off the stage. Before Doo comes to get her, she's saying, "it's all just moving... too faaaayast..."
I don't know if my life is moving too fast but I do feel incredibly cry-y and sad. I'm not sure why. I'm really really homesick for a start. I don't want to live in the States but I wish I could see the simplest of things; my parents' driveway from their kitchen table.
I feel kind of unsupported which is not entirely true because mister R-y R-b has been completely and utterely supportive and wonderful but I don't want to rely on him and I wish I had a girlfriend or two who I could go out with and commiserate. Really all I have to do is pick up the phone and call or start typing, I guess.
In some ways I just feel alone and adrift in my own inner turmoil. I've done so much and there's so much more to do.
*sigh*
GodDAMN I need a massage!
I don't know if my life is moving too fast but I do feel incredibly cry-y and sad. I'm not sure why. I'm really really homesick for a start. I don't want to live in the States but I wish I could see the simplest of things; my parents' driveway from their kitchen table.
I feel kind of unsupported which is not entirely true because mister R-y R-b has been completely and utterely supportive and wonderful but I don't want to rely on him and I wish I had a girlfriend or two who I could go out with and commiserate. Really all I have to do is pick up the phone and call or start typing, I guess.
In some ways I just feel alone and adrift in my own inner turmoil. I've done so much and there's so much more to do.
*sigh*
GodDAMN I need a massage!
